113. Today (2011)

Grid (by Archimedes)

Today we are feeling really low in spirit. Maybe it’s because Panda Bear is off to the SPCA to be spayed. We don’t want her to have any surgery of course but more importantly we don’t want her to be anywhere that’s not home without us. We have never been so attached to a cat before. How attached? Well we used to go off to Galiano and have someone feed our two cats, Sophie and Sarah, while we were gone. We wouldn’t even think of doing this with Panda Bear. It’s pretty much where we go she goes or else she stays at home.

Katy Ann (2) was crying yesterday because “I love Panda so much it hurts”. It was her and Sixteen (7) who begged us for months to get a cat. And now we are extremely bonded with this little animal. And she with us. She is very dependent on us and is not that interested in making friends with anyone else. She’s a little friendly with Lance when he visits and that’s more than with any other visitor. We wonder what tonight will be like if she has a cone on her. She won’t be able to give us her nightly kisses – she licks the side of our face and purrs loudly in our ear. Then lays down, sometimes part of her right on our head. It’s the only time she purrs. Not even when we pet her does she purr. She’s a bit of an odd one but we love her so much.

We think we have proven to ourself how valuable meditating and getting out for walks are. Yesterday we did not meditate. We did do a short run but then stayed at home the rest of the day, mostly watching tv. And we became depressed. This morning we still feel down.

Oh well, it will pass.