64. Black Cocoon

A round

Verse 1

dark surrounds the body

body surrounds the numb

numb surrounds the void

void contains the empty hand

hand contains the empty eye

eye contains the empty ear

Verse 2

box surrounds the dark

dark surrounds the body

body surrounds the numb

numb is held in bleeding fingers

fingers held in bleeding hands

hands are held in bleeding heart

Verse 3

pain surrounds the box

box surrounds the dark

dark surrounds the body

body gone in other world

world is gone in other time

time is gone in other place

Verse 4

dark surrounds the pain

pain surrounds the box

box surrounds the dark

dark is felt within the body

body is felt within the numb

numb is felt within the void

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We have a dream. We have two little boys. Neither is Graham. One is about a year old, blonde curly hair, very sweet. Quiet. The other is older, about 4 or 5. We tell Lyn about the dream and one of us says they are two of The Children of the Thirteen (3). The littlest one is Timothy. Quiet. Beautiful face. Alexander is the older boy. There is an older girl we keep seeing with that group of children. Someone has been telling us her name for a few days – Crystal. She seems to protect the other children. And there is something odd about these children.

It is a vigil we must keep with them. They lie together, 6 of them, fetal position, face down on their knees. Their blonde heads an inner circle, black cloaks fanned out form the outer circle. Belle (3), Flash (3) and Gabriel (3) sit in the room with them. Silent. The weight of remembering heavy in the silence. The Children do not move but there is a sense of some internal telepathy among them. As if they speak to each other while no one else can hear. They are never without each other. They live and breathe as one.

While they are in the room, they are also on the mountain with Old Self (2). Sometimes we can be in two places at once. In our internal world. Magic that it is. Crystal hovers over the other children, still trying to protect them. She created each of them. Meanwhile, she watches and waits for Gabriel, who created her. He is her protector.

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The Thirteen are very afraid that we are talking about the abuse. They fear something bad will happen to them/us. This is what they were taught. Tell and we will punish you. We are told that some of the images we have been getting lately are symbolic, not real. How do we know the difference?

Gabriel was the first of The Thirteen. He is very tall and wears a brown cloak. He reminds us of the actor Jeremy Irons. His abuse was the first ritual abuse incident. Flash and Tir (1) are good friends. He is one of her main protectors. He wears black with silver, sparkly things all over and his hair is very long and very black.